So after the treacherous climb that varsity presented I too had reached the finish line and 2012 looked like a man with Jesus' abs and the face of Brat Pitt. I was a graduate, I had arrived, I had reached a milestone that many had given up on for whatever reason and I was ready to conquer the corporate world. Surely after all the sweat, blood, tears and the academic fights that took place between mummy and I, I surely was destined to reap my rewards? Work would fall into my lap; companies would be begging to employ this young, smart, dynamic and strong individual to head up their projects. I would finally move into a cosmopolitan neighborhood and drive in a car that would make men drool and form a love/hate relationship between other women and myself. Oh yes, 20-wealth had my name written all over it and I was the star of the show BUT boy was I mistaken!
No great companies or any companies for that matter called. My mornings were spent in pj's waving goodbye to my boyfriend as he went off to his new job. I also discovered that looking for a full-time job IS a full-time job ladies and gentlepeople. The money spent on internet searches for the type of job that is suited to your qualification, the faxing or emailing of your c.v, the dreadful waiting and of course more time in your pj's eating yourself out of house and home. Now some of you may say that I lack patience and it has not been long enough for me to begin with the hair-pulling exercise that comes with being unemployed but a song once told me that "mama may have and daddy may have but God bless the child who has her own" and I want nothing more than to make myself proud in that regard, plus leather boots are very expensive. I know that I am swimming in shallow waters as far as the time I have spent looking for work but when you do not finish varsity in record time the journey at the end is so emotionally draining and it makes no sense why the world cannot see the hard work you put in just to get to that end.
I even have employment envy towards my boyfriend. Everyday is different from the last and it is so lovely to watch him happily skip and hop to work knowing that the opportunity to challenge himself presents itself on a daily basis. I am very proud of him but because misery loves company, there are times when I want to kick him in the nuts and have him stay at home with me so that we can rock in the same boat.
Thank goodness for the blessing that is dance, it helps patch up where the bills have a hole hahaha
I have had slight depression, for lack of a less dramatic word, episodes but I continue to put my best foot forward and make lemonade out of life's lemons. I am currently an employee in the unemployment line and will one day resign from this position and instead of making women hate to love me, I will take a sister by the hand and help her find her feet. For now, I work at finding work.
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